Woke up angry and frustrated. After breakfast, while smoking outside, I studied what I was feeling and realized that I felt nothing inside, no anger or frustrations. Very interesting!? So were did those emotions came from, my mind and internal conversation? The voice that criticizes me continuously? this time for watching TV until late last night and getting up late in the morning, and wasting time, and ...
Work is OK, I know what I need to do today. I will finish it and then will go swimming.
Today, I saw a peregrine falcon attacked a hawk right in front of my office window, the whole thing took a fraction of a second. Cool! :)
Today, a few times I got some news, or was in situations, that would normally made me nervous or depressed. But I asked myself a simple question: What do I feel now? As I focused inside and observed my feelings, I realized that I felt no emotions! I decided that those typical reactions (nervousness, depression, ...) are the results of my thinking, and not feeling. That observation ended the problem almost immediately.
Once during the day, I remembered a memory from a friend, a friendship that I have lost, and had a clear feeling of sharp pain in my chest, like an arrow piecing my chest and then an emptiness in my chest and a pressure.
After work went to swim and on way back home, I was watching the scenes while driving and a few times I felt something indescribable, a sense of awe and amazement, as if the scenes had something magnificent hidden in them.