I am left in Awe,
by the strength, persistence,
and aggressiveness of my depression.
After so many years of treatments,
after recent successes with medications,
after changing many aspects of my life,
and learning new ways and skills.
Still when the winds of depression start blowing,
they easily gather strength,
and become a devastating storm.
It turns everything over,
pulling out all trees of my endeavor,
one by one.
Just like a boy,
wild, rude, and negligent,
that ruins everything around him,
simply for the enjoyment.
And I simply stand here,
watching the cruelty in awe ....