1- I was not feeling well for the past couple of days, starting from Friday morning, TAHVILE SAAL!? Today, while playing tennis, a sudden fear captured me for a few seconds. A free fall kind of feeling. What if all I have done in the past few month in meaningless? What if all the improvements were just the exuberance from a new thing and I end up back to my old self, with all the disappointments, anger, self-hatred and such?
2- A friend introduced me to a good book a couple of weeks ago, "Mastery" by George Leonard. A basic theme is that learning a physical activity develops through stages, starting with a fast improvement, then a slight drop to a plateau (a period of stagnation) and the cycle repeats in the journey to mastery. The concept makes good sense to me in my learning of tennis and kyudo.
3- On my way back from tennis, I suddenly put the two together: What if not only physical learning, but mental and psychological development also involve such cycles? Then I should expect a slight drop to a plateau for a while, until the next phase of improvement! That was sort of a relief :)